Naturally, I had to watch every.single.video because the ironic part about addiction recovery videos is that they're addicting to watch.
I watched, completely fascinated, crying, feeling my heart break from the love I felt for each of these 12 different people.
Two things I didn't expect from watching:
1) I learned how to use drugs. Now it makes sense why you can't smoke meth.
2) The change
Later that day, after watching the videos, I drove past a man who seemed mentally ill. He was talking to himself and kicking at air. These actions are all part of the usual homeless crowd you'll see around downtown SLC.
When I come into this kind of company, my usual first reaction isn't to think lesser of that person's value, but my thoughts do gravitate to my personal safety. I'm wary of being rushed at by strangers, or people jumping into my car. Sounds crazy, but both have happened before.
I watched the man stumble and mumble as he made his way down the sidewalk. Here I waited for the usual feelings of self-defense & heightened awareness hit me. I waited to feel like I needed to lock my car doors. I waited. And, to my surprise, those feelings didn't come.
Instead, I became aware of something else entirely. My eyes were opening to this man. The longer I watched him, the more I saw him as someone who was just like me. Someone who's just another human being on this planet. Someone who's has lost their way in life before. And someone who has a chance at finding it again.
Just from watching those videos, my eyes were seeing something better than they had known before.
It's incredible what a good short film can do for you.
It's heavy stuff, but click here if you want to see the first video in the series.