Master I'm fffrreeeeeee!

After a long hiatus of finishing up a tough semester, I can finally cut the apron strings from the university.
… For about 1 more day until the summer semester begins. ☺



Although I haven't been publishing anything public, I have been still writing nearly every day. I had an interesting experience choosing to privately write about my life rather than blabbing it out on the internet. Writing without any regard to an audience in my journal was immensely freeing. I explored different avenues of topics, sometimes exploring deep on a single thought, or retracting to a broader perspective of the ins and outs of the day. My ability to convey my deeper thoughts grew immensely. I created a safe place to write about business strategy and leadership without worrying it was too boring to publish on my blog.
But then again, pouring all my energy into a blank journal sucked a lot of my creativity.
I didn’t have pictures to post or conversations to start up with strangers. I missed writing stupid
jokes and writing stories. I didn’t have a reason to look up funny memes. I had a literal
yearning to keep up our family’s journal. Maybe that yearning that was for simplicity to look
up certain past events (much easier to look up online rather than flipping through my brown
leather journal), or maybe it was just the validating feeling of physically posting something.
Either way, I really missed that part of blogging too.
For a while, I think I’ve wanted to have my blog be an all-encompassing collection of my
writings. Now I realize that’s why I haven’t felt completely satisfied in my blog. I couldn’t
always be as honest or deep as I wanted to be. (And for some reason, I really disliked the
label of being a Mormon Mommy blogger, even though I fit and enjoy all the criteria.) My desire
to write this blog sourced from false expectations I set for myself, and less what I actually
wanted to write on. I don't nearly get enough sleep for that kind of wasted energy!
For this blog, I really just want story telling, pictures of my kids, and to have an outlet for
good ideas I find. (Taylor can only handle SO much of my excitement when I figure out a new
way to reinvest a stock or organize a hallway art gallery.) This is me, giving myself permission
to do just that. (And to ignore those suffocating marketing emails in my inbox who's subject
lines shriek at me "YOUR BLOG WILL FAIL IF YOU DON'T DO THIS THING" and I scream
back "I JUST WANT TO TELL SOMEONE ABOUT THE TIME WHEN I SCARED THE PIZZA
MAN AND MADE HIM THROW HIS PIZZAS THERE IS NO FAILURE IN THIS".)
Man, the social media world is so feisty sometimes.
Anyway, I'm glad to resume writing online.
Now off to re-shackle the chain and ball around my ankle to my summer classes. :)

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